t h e r e m i n i s c e n t s t a r - -
v2.o -star.
thereminiscentstar .
portia jolene ; posh * lene * (:
LALAPOLYPOCKETCHOONG ;
going 19 .
nafa svaf .
attached . =)
they call me starshine ; tinkerbell ; queenLALA*
191286
broken; and worthless .
hyper .
not what i seem to be .
tend to lose myself in thoughts .
daydreamerr .
sadistic .
black ; hotpeenk ; orange ; white ; purple .
lamee . extremely at times .
comforts people ; but yearns comfort from friends .
cynical .
imperfect .
stubborn .
bossy .
extremely fragile ;
has a soft mushy heart .
am redundant whereever i am . =)
yearns to fly *
je'taime .
the Man Up there . =))
him. =D
churchies .
EEYOREE !
monokuro boo .
cinnamoroll .
starrs .
my telescope . also known as my WIFE . =]
butterflies .
qing tian wawa .
windmills .
carousels .
dancing .
clubbing .
esplanade .
east coast .
southern most point .
changi airport .
marina south .
to be a unique !
blowing bubbles .
jewellery making . =D
taking black&white photographs .
photoshopp !
princess .
cousins shannon&jamie !
sad songs .
piano ; sax ; guitar . (but can't play any)
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
i'm feeling anything but at ease now .
and the chaos within is almost smothering me .
daylight tries to make its way in ..
but yet darkness still surrounds .
screeching to an alarming halt .
i realised i can no longer keep up with myself .
i can no longer hold it in .
but i will.. still .
the air is wearing thin ..
and somehow i find myself choking in a way or another .
screaming for air ..
and the very next moment everything just blacks out .
as though i was never there at all..
as though i never existed .
look not into my eyes ..
its not warmth you'll find .
heading slowly down ..
to the freezing point .
i fear who i might become .
and yet i can't seem to stop it from happening .
leave me be ..
for my words are cold .
and i don't wanna hurt anyone .. anymore .
the stars glow dimly behind the heavy dark clouds that loom in the nightsky .
they're there . always ..
its a well known fact but still the disappointment comes when all you see are hues of indigo .
i guess somehow i've lost myself more than i thought i did .
and i have no idea how i'm gonna find me back .
but i will try .
:)
its been a long time .
and i have no idea what i'm thinking ..
typing this out here .
so public .
so open .
its unlike me .
but maybe i just need to get it out .
maybe i just need someone to truly understand the things i can never say .
maybe i'm just tired of keeping it within .
maybe i'm just tired of screaming only to hear echoes of myself .
maybe.. just maybe .
an emptiness slowly settles in ..
the way it always does after shedding tears .
tears that i refused to let them fall ..
but they did anyways .
i'm sorry i'm not strong enough .
;elysium.
9:37:00 PM
eternitywithYOU.
Zen Neeon .
new laptop .
Christian Dior - Dolce Vita .
Corrinne May's 2 albums .
Plumb's albums .
Dishwalla's albums .
Nicholas Spark's books .
Levis 501 & Diva Jeans .
Chronicles of Narnia .
a new starglobe . =|
my daisy rock star bass .
